HEARTly Worth Anything Without An Orgasm

After a long day of auditions, runway class, and lecturing this is the first thing I see on Facebook when I get home.

And the debate that followed was SO frustrating that I'm not even going to go into how my day was. That's for tomorrow.

First of all, I have to say GET OVER ****YOURSELF**** MR PHOTOGRAPHER MAN. Based on your resume and photos I don't see every girl on the planet throwing themselves at you with their panties and bras being flung the other direction. 

Ahem. So a little background story.

Along my journeys, I have been honored by receiving invites to friend photographers from all over the world through social media sites. And this man (let's call him Vomitron) was one of them. His page claimed high fashion, tattoo work, and animated retouching. His photos were gorgeous... All three of them that I could see at the time.

It wasn't until last night that I realized he was a nude photographer.

Now, there is a place for nude photography. When I was struggling with rent back in the day, I used to do nude modeling for art classes and photography classes. I never took off my underwear, but I never felt uncomfortable or threatened to either. Nude photography can be a gorgeous, artistic, expressive, light and a powerful way to capture the human truths that the subjects have to show. It especially has a great ability to empower people's images of themselves by showing that skin is skin and you don't have to be ashamed of your body.

That being said, let's go back to Vomitron.

I first address this subject by stating that it is not fair to illegitimize a models profession based on the fact that they do not want to BARE IT ALL.

Vomitron says that if I'm not open to his type of photography as a model then I'm not truly a professional.... But rather a hobbyist. Have you heard of a little publication called VOGUE- he asks. You should look into it.... Still want to "be a model" now?

First of all I don't ASPIRE to be a model.... I AM a model. Professionally. But Vomitron doesn't know this. Second of all when I signed with Major, they went through a full scrub to delete or research any full nudes that may be of me and other models on the internet. Now, if sooooo high class, why would one of the top ten agencies in the world be so concerned about whitewashing the histories of models gone wild? Thirdly, I think to my newest model friend, Spencer. He is a signed model... Who is Mormon. He refuses to do any work that his mother wouldn't approve of and has almost walked from a set before due to the nature of the shoot. He holds very high standards for his work and himself. In a world where SEX SELLS why is it that he just came back from 3 months in Milan, has NY Fashion Week to attend, and is full represented?

Perhaps there's more to modeling, more to creating imagery than just sex. Perhaps when models do their work, they don't always need to be thinking "what's the best way to pose so that the person seeing this advertisement or garment will think to themselves.... I would fuck the hell out of that model right now."

My emotions are peaked.

But, I DO go back to Vogue and check out their images. There are some gorgeous, tasteful simple nudes. People just sitting in chairs, kneels, floating in water. Just casually chillax ing there naked. And the images are stunning.... Powerful.... Empowering.

I decide to give Vomitron a reprieve from my argumentative onslaught. Perhaps he is simply a guy who likes to capture these types of moments. To harness the simplicity and artistic side of the human canvas. What a noble thing!

So I go through his portfolio and study the photos one by one. This is what I find and thus is what I think.

Ohhhh look at this one. DEFINITELY Vogue worthy. What else says provactive like the
unrealistic image of two straight girls pretending they're lesbians?
Wow, the lighting here really highlights that powerful, soft, gorgeous
moment that only can be described as lipstick and lace. The jaw lines,
slacked down in the most relaxed way.... Geez. I don't know about YOU
but when I see this... All I can think of is GET ME A PICTURE FRAME
WE NEED THIS IN A MUSEUM.... WHERE IT CAN INSPIRE EVERYONE!
WHERE ARE THE CHILDREN????... THEY NEED TO SEE THIS! .... THIS
PHOTO SHOULD BE IN EVERY SCHOOL ACROSS AMERICA.... EVERY ART CLASS!
PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW WHAT REEEEEAL PHOTOGRAPHY LOOKS LIKE!
LITTLE GIRLS ASPIRING TO WALK THE RUNWAY NEED TO KNOW,
THAT THIS IS WHAT A REEEEEAL MODEL LOOKS LIKE,
AND THAT THEY WONT BE LEGITIMATE OTHERWISE.

I just want them to have a head start on their dreams.

When I grow up, I hope I can model as a lesbian like that too.

Oh this on is great! This girl is obviously portraying an existential sleeper,
who is smiling as she dreams.... Est il ya UN mutton dans la bateau? (The Petite Prince)
Look at the carefree waves of her hair just doing it's thing.... What I get from that
is that before she puts her head down on the pillow.... Wait there is no pillow. Maybe this
is a piece about poverty being beautiful? She can't afford clothing, a pillow, or a hair tie
but she's still happy? It seems that she can't afford underwear either... Because she is apparently
covering her ladybits from the cold. I mean it doesn't look like she's touching herself
in appropriately at all right? Man... The soft pink of her skin against the creamy white bed sheets....
she's like a little pearl. A little happy masturbating pearl just laying there- I mean.... Um
Ahem.

MOM! Come see this! This is what I hope I can do when I'm a legitimate model! Ah man,
Mom you don't even know! If I were that chick, I'd squeeze my nipples juuuuust a little,
You know.... Just add some emotion and energy into the photo.

IM GONNA BE FAMOUS.

Clearly this one is inspired by the aftermath of Cinderella... And talks about not being able to let go.
Of your shoes.
Perhaps what this photo suggests it's that, the "Cinderella" featured here is afraid
to remove her footwear before crawling into bed, because the fact that the shoe fit,
was the reason the prince found her. And she's afraid to lose him again. So sleep, shine, or swimming.... Those stillettos are staying firmly in place.
I think the most Vogue-worthy note on this exceptional shot,
is the way the legs are splayed out. It really says that since we spend a third of our lives in our beds,
Our beds are our homes... And this girl CLEARLY wants her body to be pressed
as close to home as possible.

GRANDMA! CHECK THIS OUT! YOU KNOW HOW I ALWAYS WANTED
TO BE A REEEEEAL MODEL? WELL, WHENEVER I VISITED FOR
THE HOLIDAYS, ID PRACTICE ALL MY POSES IN THE GUEST ROOM,
AND I THINK I FUCKING NAILED IT! HERE, LOOK! WHAT DO
YOU THINK? DOES MY MOUTH LOOK JUICY ENOUGH? WHAT ABOUT
MY LEGS... DOES IT LOOK LIKE YOU COULD FIT A WELL HUNG MAN
IN BETWEEN THEM FROM BEHIND? OH OH WAIT WHAT
ABOUT MY EYES, MANICURED FINGERNAILS, AND SOFT SKIN....
DO I LOOK LIKE A YOUNG HOT TIGRESS READY TO JUST CRAWL
AT YOU? THANKS FOR THE FEEDBACK GRANDMA. IM
GONNA BE IN VOGUE!

Speaking of cookies.... Vomit.

Wow! This is by far my FAVORITE! This photo plainly says, AMERICA IS A PLACE
WHERE TIME IS MONEY... SO CUT ANY CORNERS YOU CAN TO SAVE SOME
SECONDS OF YOUR DAY.
For instance... Who has TIME anymore for a shower AND breakfast? Both? Seperately?
I mean, this is America! We are in the clock all the time!
So why not save a few precious minutes in the morning and eat your breakfast
WHILE you shower?
JUST LIKE THIS GIRL you too can be singing to your morning apple under lukewarm
waters. Like Ariel!
Don't forget, you've REALLY got to throw your head back while you are in there,
just to get the best angle possible at your food. As a model, make sure that your motions
are slightly exaggerated so that the camera can really capture the emotion....
For instance, make sure your mouth isn't just open to take a bite,
make sure it's cavernous. We, as the audience, REALLY need to see that action.

I personally want to know what kind of lipstick she is wearing.
Waterproof for sure... I wonder if she knows that the shower
isn't taking it off? She needs better soap.

HEY DAD, SORRY BUT IM TRYING TO PRACTICE TO BE A REAL MODEL...
WHEN I DO THIS WITH MY FOOD DO YOU FEEL I LOOK MORE
OR LESS PROFESSIONAL LIKE THE GIRL IN THIS PHOTO
... OH. YOU MEAN IT WOULDVE BEEN CLASSIER IF I WERE DOING THIS
WITH A BANANA? GEEZ DAD I NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT
THANKS! OH... WOW! MY OWN STASH OF PLAYBOY TO STUDY
FOR CONCEPTS? YOURE E BEST DADDY ON THE PLANET!

Sigh.

Let's get real here.

There IS an art behind the types of photos that Vomitron takes. There IS a talent. There IS a market for it. And it is one that is appreciated by many members of society. The girls are gorgeous, the photography is flawless.... It is it's own entity.

But it's not VOGUE. It's not high fashion. It is not the kind of photography that you will find in any high end gallery anytime soon. And that's ok.

The models above are REAL models too.

But I want to make it very clear. VERY FUCKING CLEAR RIGHT NOW!

I DONT HAVE TO SHOW YOU MY TITS OR MY VAGINA TO BE SEXY.

Sexy does NOT mean SEXUAL.

I do NOT have to FUCK the camera, fake my sexual preference, or get wet for you to want me.

As egotistical as this may sound.... And scary.... I am confident that clothed or not, I can be desirable.

This is what is wrong with this world.... The mystery is dying. The magic is dying. We are becoming desensitized due too the easy access to naked moaning women all over the internet.

If I'm wearing a garment in an advertisement (no matter which gender I'm representing... Bt let's say women). IM SELLING TO WOMEN. And people, I hate to fuck your minds a little bit, but WOMEN are no longer RELYING on their MALE COUNTERPARTS to buy their clothing.

Which means, when WOMEN are buying their clothing, and looking at ads, they are seeing what THEY could be.... Want to be... Etc. and often will dress to impress their friends, family, or lovers.

Why can't we change this so that people dress to impress THEMSELVES?

So that when you don an outfit, you truly are able to say, I love myself in this and I don't give two fucks if someone else does. This is who IIIIII want to be.

A sex kitten.... Absolutely if that's what you want get it!
A conservative collared shirt gal.... Totes for it!
Dark and moody with chains.... If that's who YOU are!

There is nothing wrong with being sexy. Porn. Or experimental clothing. But we MUST change this concept that SEX is the only way we will be taken care of, loved, and validated.

We really need to promote that we are enough for OURSELVES and that IF we choose to mold our appearances slightly to impress a friend, lover, or family matter- then it's an honor for them not an obligation.

You are a powerful person. You are capable of creating, crushing, and conceptualizing things that can change the world. Whether you feel that or not. You (MEN AND WOMEN) are more than a fuck toy. You are ENOUGH to be desired, no orgasms required. You are MORE than your genitals. You are more than your hormones.

You are your heart.